Well, Hell

They say, that those who cuss are lacking in creative thought processing.  Well, there ya go.  I couldn't think of anything else to name this blog.  I tried, but all I came up with was worse.

I'm missing Katie, I'm sad that my mother is in pain and not herself, my dog pee'd on the carpet TWICE today, and I'm lonely.  See!  Well, Hell.  That's what happens when you are stuck in your house for 2 1/2 days.  I spent 2 hours scraping ice off my driveway and my dog still pee'd in the house.  Somehow, that's just not right...but I don't speak "dog" and so there we are.

I started my homework tho'...a meditation book.  Here's a quote - "In India, those saints who are in accord with this silent hub of Dharma are thought to emit a spiritual power that, though unseen, exerts an orderly influence on the environment, freeing it from all kinds of misfortune.  Thus the activity of "seeing" this inner axis of the universe was thought to be more important than a million good deeds, for the "seeing" would prevent harmful activities from occurring for miles around. This is why in the East skillful inaction is considered to be a tremendously potent form of action."  James N. Powell, "The Tao of Symbols"

My thoughts were about my 6 months off.  My inaction has certainly benefitted me!  Yet I never thought about how it might help the world...or just my neighborhood!  I know it has helped me to be a better person, respond more gently to my mother, and be less judgemental in my dealings with other people.  It's true that stress makes you harsh...at least for me it is.  So my time to heal, has been just that...time to heal.  But has my healing helped make a better world?  Better than a million good deeds?

How would I know?  It's like alternative medicine.  You don't know how eating organic, not using the microwave, drinking pure water, keep you from getting sick...b/c alternative medicine people still get sick...but would we be sicker?  We just don't know.  Certainly statistics show that eating well, keeps you healthier...but individually - we can't prove anything.

So maybe my healing and empowerment from having 6 months off has helped the world, as it's helped me.  In the law of physics, "what goes around, comes around".  Energy emits like energy and cannot be destroyed.  It's possible that my healing has sent out healing waves and affected someone else...I like to think I have helped my friends, but maybe even more than that...is it possible that healing is exponential?  Let's go with that.  What can it hurt?  Might help.  and if possible, please send some of that to my Mom.