So my friend Ola, is going in for a major dr's appt Wednesday. Then my friend Amy is going in for a "tissue expander" appt following a mastectomy (very painful) - on Wed. Then my friend Mary, emailed and said she is going in for a diagnostic appt, yep, on Wed!, to see if she has to have her spleen out! Damn! What is goin' on???
I want to help. I'm gonna be a minister - shouldn't I be able to offer some sort of comfort or help? Fear, grief, despair...we all experience it so differently and thus, are comforted in such different ways. So I prayed...or meditated or something. And I got this sort of pulsing. I don't know what it is. I experienced it for the first time at Sancta Sophia and noticed that during our meditation time, the person leading it was swaying to the same rhythm that I felt. Hmm. The people at SSS feel this mystical power from the mountain that it is set on...well, I will keep you posted.
So what about Jesus? I thought, while I was praying...could Jesus help here? and I thought of him as a politician, but also as a son. The people he healed...you know, there weren't 1000's...just a chosen few. Why is that? Were the healed more "open" or "willing"...or was it a political move? That is is a scary thought.
Yet we certainly have to be willing to be healed to experience healing...however you define healing. Sometimes, in my experience, healing isn't about "cure"...for instance, my mother has not been "healed" of Alzheimers, but she has given my brother and I the opportunity to love each other in a deeper, more alive way. That is healing. Yet, if I could, I would take away the fear, the pain, the disability of my friends...even while I know, at least on some level, that this is their path and they must walk it. To take it away, is to have them repeat it. We are stubborn learners, we humans.
So my prayer is this, "Father, Mother God. Please hold my friends close. Let them feel your Presence...have them be absolutely sure that You are there with them. Let them see Light, so that they know where to put their feet. Give them strength, Lord...hold their hand, hold their heart. Kiss them softly on the forehead. Let them know You are there. Absolutely."
Namaste'
My definition of healing is just a change in thought. So even if you don't see healing on the outside, you can still feel healed on the inside if you've been blessed in some way or learned something.
ReplyDeleteAlso, pertaining to Jesus I think he DID heal thousands. The Bible says that he healed the multitudes on a couple different occasions. It's true that we only get detailed accounts of a couple, but the Gospels do kind of glaze over the fact that he healed "multitudes." However you want to define that, maybe it was just a handful or maybe it was hundreds or thousands. Who knows! Also I don't understand the "political move" thing...