TMI

Literally.  Too much information.  Last week was Esoteric Spirituality.  This week is deconstructing the Old Testament.  Did you know that much of the OT may be myth and myth only?  Not just Adam and Eve...but much of what we know about Abraham, Joseph, David, Solomon etc.  It's possible that none of it happened, but has been interpreted by our Christian lens to be true.  It is said that Judaism, Christianity, and Islam all came from Abraham...but they can't prove it.

What about the Exodus story?  600,000 people wandering thro the desert for 40 years.  No signs.  No proof.  What does it do to your faith if none of it is true?  What if the 1st 5 books of the Bible were made up as teaching lessons to make certain points?  If you want to watch the PBS documentary that we watched today on what they know to be true of the OT, you can either download it on Itunes or get it thro PBS.  "Buried Secrets of the Bible", NOVA, PBS.

Then there is the Esoteric explanation for everything.  Sorta like metaphysical, but different.  Suffice it to say, my brain is reeling.  It's like 3 different tracks running in my head...1) What if none of it is true, but all myth? 2) What if some of it is true, but not all...and I have to decide what is true for me? and 3)  Esoterically, that there are "ages" as in Taurus, Pisces and Aquarian ages, that decipher much of what happened?

So the Esoteric belief system is "out there" - but makes a lot of sense in some ways.  The problem is that most people here already have adopted it as part of their faith.  There is one woman in particular who is "religious right" in her belief of the Esoteric explanation...and she just irritates me.  She says things like, "No, that is wrong, this is right, you can't say that, and no, it didn't happen like that".  I have recognized that this really puts up walls for me...I resist the education b/c she is so adamant that I have to accept it.  The hell I do!  And yet I am here to learn and be open to new ideas. 

It just irritates me b/c I should be able to accept things at my own pace...not at hers.  At least she is just another student, not one of the instructors.  I'm not sure you could get her to admit that though.  Anyway - you can see that I am having a few issues.  AND - I am damn tired of living in someone else's house and not having any space of my own.  There is simply no place for me to go that I can be by myself and it is exhausting me.  If I am to move down here, it will have to be in space that is my own.  I cannot share with someone else, especially if it is within their own living space.

Ok - I am done whining.  Overload does that to me.  3 more days and Little Bit and I go home.  Praise God.